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Sevmeyi Biliyordum Ben

Sevmeyi Biliyordum Ben

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<p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Kaybederek kazandım olgunluğumu </span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Ebelendim, sobelendim, utuldu bilyelerim</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">U&ccedil;uyordum unuttum et kemik konduğumu</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Diktim hayatı ama ipsizmiş iğnelerim</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Birg&uuml;n bezden bebeklerim s&ouml;k&uuml;ld&uuml; </span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Birg&uuml;n sa&ccedil;ımdan &ouml;rg&uuml;lerim &ccedil;&ouml;z&uuml;ld&uuml;</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Aynalardan bakan biri vardı hep bana</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Mavi boncuklarım bileğimden sebepsizce d&ouml;k&uuml;ld&uuml;</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Boncuk boncuk değil miydi, tesbih dizdim boynuma</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Yaralı civciv buldum sakladım hep koynuma</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Kolum kırıldı sonra yuva oldu orası</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">G&ouml;zleri kızıl kahve bakış bahtım karası</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Isınsın diye koydum ocağın k&uuml;zineye </span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Annem yakmış sobayı &ouml;ld&uuml;m &ouml;ld&uuml;m dirildim</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Sonra baktım i&ccedil;inde ne in var ne de bir cin</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Minderin altında ezilmiş ah civcivim</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Anladım &ouml;l&uuml;m denen bir şey varmış bildiğin</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">İnat ettim h&uuml;zn&uuml;me,&nbsp; g&ouml;zyaşıma sarıldım</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Yumrukladım duvarı, d&uuml;şen taşa darıldım</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Mezar kazdım kalbime g&ouml;md&uuml;m onu toprağa</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Ka&ccedil; mevsimler devrildi takvimdeki yağrağa</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Kim var diye bağırdım dağ eteklerinde</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Sesimi bana veren bir ses vardı &ouml;tede</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">İ&ccedil;imden başka sesler işitirdim arada</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Boğulmanın afillisi yalnızlıkla karada</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Kaybederek kazandım olgunluğumu</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Kırıldım, belki kırdım, belki de hi&ccedil; birisi</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">&Ouml;l&uuml;m&uuml; &ccedil;&ouml;zmeyene fayda vermez dirisi</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">&Ccedil;ok d&uuml;şt&uuml;m taş toprak yaralandı dizlerim</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Onlar kapandı da kapanmaz kalbimdeki izlerim</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Ağlıyorum aklıma geldik&ccedil;e&nbsp; sarı kedi</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Bir k&ouml;pek vardı Pito,&nbsp; onu da kurtlar yedi</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Gamsız dediler bana oysa &ccedil;ok dertlenmiştim</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">G&uuml;l&uuml;şlerin ardında sakladım durdum beni</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Bir fotoğraf karesi g&ouml;zlerimde ıslandı</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Sanki iki dağ birden y&uuml;reğime yaslandı</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Kimi tuttuysa elim kayboldu teker teker</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Ekmeği &ccedil;iğnedim hep, sakızları hep yuttum</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Boğazıma ka&ccedil;masaydı b&uuml;y&uuml;kl&uuml;k denen şeker</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; margin-right:0cm; text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:11pt"><span style="font-family:Calibri,&quot;sans-serif&quot;">Sevmeyi biliyordum ben, bakma şimdi unuttum...</span></span></p> <p style="margin-left:0cm; 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